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Today I

September 8th, 2009 (01:31 am)

Today I packed up and left.

Today I drove many miles.

Today I held a life expiring.

Today I held a life beginning.

Today I finished my last eccentric orbit
and broke free for regions unknown.



Today I buried a kitten.

Today I left my birthplace forever.

Today I charted my true course.

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Disappointment

November 5th, 2008 (02:21 pm)
angry

feeling: angry

So, Obama won. Woo woo, long nightmare finally over, all that.

My opinion, shared with several others, is that the importance of this election is more symbolic than practical. As the man, himself, said, this was our (the People's) campaign. We built it, we bolstered it, we did it.

Words of eloquence on the subject have been spoken elsewhere, so I don't really feel the need to add much. An unusually historic moment has taken place. We have proven that we, as a country, can make the right choice.

The emphasis on the word, "can," in the preceding sentence is meant to have two meanings. The first, obvious meaning is in contrast to the idea that we, as a country, cannot make the right decision, an idea that was thankfully falsified last night. But the other meaning is that, though we can make the right decisions, it does not follow that we necessarily will.

An example of this maxim is that, on the same night that the people of California overwhelmingly lent their voices to creating a positive change in this country, they used those same voices to strip what most consider a fundamental right from a whole group of people.

Yes, stripped. It wasn't a clarification, a mere matter of closing possible loopholes of interpretation. The courts of California had already asserted that homosexuals do, in fact, have the right to marry one another, and the people of California took that right away.

If you voted "yes" to something called "Eliminates Right of Same-Sex Couples to Marry," (emphasis mine) I have only one thing to say.

What the hell is wrong with you?

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I'm doing it

November 2nd, 2008 (03:27 pm)
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Day two. Word count? 5800.

Now if only the verification uploader would work ...

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It's an incipient meme

October 3rd, 2008 (02:55 pm)
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Readin' A Thing
1. Are you reading anything presently? If so, what is it?
2. What's your favorite genre, or niche?
3. Least favorite?
4. Have any books or stories ever changed your outlook on life?
5. Are there any you changed your opinion about?
6. What's the most difficult book or story you've read? (Emotionally, conceptually, linguistically, 'cause you were hanging from a cliff, &c.)
7. About how many books do you own?
8. Per month, how many books do you borrow from the library?
9. Do you read eBooks?
10. Do you listen to audio books?
11. Do you read in bed?
12. Do you read while walking or doing other things?
13. What's your typical reading posture like?
14. What books do you keep intending to read, but put off?
15. How did you learn to read?
16. What is the first book you remember reading?
17. What were your favorite books as a child?
18. What children’s books do you enjoy as an adult?
19. Do you ever read the ending first?

Compliments of hat_of_nikitich.

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A sort of recap

May 28th, 2008 (12:01 pm)
blah

current location: gilman
feeling: blah

What a magnificent train wreck...Collapse )

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Eep

May 20th, 2008 (11:52 pm)
anxious
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feeling: anxious

So we were running Old Hillsbrad with the guild, and I heard mewling from the other room. Not unusual, we have three seven cats, but up until right now, none of them were that high-pitched.

So I went to investigate, and found that our Eowyn has apparently produced four kittens.

So ... yeah. I don't know thing one about actually caring for newborn kittens. Advice would be exceedingly well-appreciated.

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Procrastination

May 19th, 2008 (09:38 pm)

I was going to post today, but I didn't. Except for now. But this isn't a real post, you'll see.

Yeah, I've been quiet. Yeah, it's because there's something I've been avoiding addressing. No, I'm not quite ready to do so.

Everything's at a bit of a crossroads. Appropriate for the season, I guess.

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Analogous magnification

May 12th, 2008 (01:01 am)
crappy
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feeling: disconnected

"So when he reached up to his ear and turned off the interface for the first time since he had implanted it, Jane did not feel it as the meaningless switch-off of a trivial communications device. She felt it as her dearest and only friend, her lover, her husband, her brother, her father, her child-- all telling her, abruptly, inexplicably, that she should cease to exist. It was as if she had suddenly been placed in a dark room with no windows and no door. As if she had been blinded or buried alive.

And for several excruciating seconds, which to her were years of loneliness and suffering, she was unable to fill up the sudden emptiness of her topmost levels of attention. Vast portions of her mind, of the parts that were most herself, went completely blank. All the functions of all the computers on or near the Hundred Worlds continued as before; no one anywhere noticed or felt a change; but Jane herself staggered under the blow."

-- Speaker for the Dead, Chapter 11

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Things

May 8th, 2008 (07:40 am)
sleepy

feeling: sleep-deprived

It ended up being an early night last night, for once. No WoW, just thoughts, and bed.

Of course, this morning, Gimli decided that it was human playtime about 7 am, which deprived me of forty-five perfectly good minutes of sleep. Alas.

Still sleep deprived. Show tonight. Must gather my costuming.

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"That was unexpected."

May 6th, 2008 (08:12 pm)
content

feeling: content

Is there any situation for which a Simpsons quote will not suffice?

I did not expect today. And it is good.

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Spring Fling

May 5th, 2008 (10:14 am)
anxious

current location: Gilman
feeling: agitated

I guess Spring Fling is today. So I'm feeling shitty, like I always do when I'm presented with the option to Have Fun [tm] as college students are Supposed To [tm]. It's easy enough not to go; harder to escape is the (irrational) belief that Everyone Else is going to be going and having the time of their lives. And I believe, perhaps rightly, that I would not have fun if I did go.

This is all related to the sense I have that I can't have fun the way normal people do. Watching, or playing, sports? No. Going to concerts? Not usually. Drugs, alcohol and partying? My visceral opposition is staggering. Where are all the people who like to sit around coffee shops and discuss philosophy? Where are all the people for whom a rollicking Friday night is pizza and a gaming table? Where ... bah.

I'm noticing a trend, here, that my life always seems to fall apart right about this time of year. It's happened pretty consistently for my entire adult life and it's happening now, right on schedule. It might be worthwhile for me to examine why this keeps happening.

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Beltane thoughts

April 30th, 2008 (10:11 am)
blah
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feeling: meh

Yeah, I know that's the common spelling. Uncharacteristically, no, I don't care. Especially since nobody can seem to agree on the "correct" spelling, which might not be true but I can't be arsed to go looking.

Also? I decided to update before I remembered that it's Beltane eve. So it's really purely a coincidence.

I read my LJ every day, usually several times; it's on the list of things that come up every time I start my web browser. Despite this, as I'm sure you've all noticed, I'm not inclined towards daily updates. Or towards commenting. I'm not sure why that is.

So what's been going on?

Well, let's see. On the WoW front, I have finally, after almost two years of playing the game, managed to stick with one character long enough to get to 70. It's a pretty big change, so I've been adjusting to that. The rest of my guild is catching up with me, so with any luck, in a few weeks, we'll be able to do the high-level instances as a guild. In the meantime, it's become a grind for gold and reputation. I have *no* idea what I'll do once I have my epic flyer.

Although flying mounts are unassailably cool.

School's over in a few weeks, and after that, what? I have no idea.

I thought I had more to say, about school and girls and depression, but I guess I really don't. I'm tired, I'm depressed and I feel like I barely have the energy to organize a coherent thought. I'm also distracted, waiting for something that may or may not happen.

Oh, and apparently I'm an actor again. Neth won a playwriting competition, an excellent one-act, and I found myself volunteering to be in the show/staged reading. I actually have two roles to read, one in her show and one in one of the other winners.' I was last on stage for any kind of performance more than ten years ago three semesters ago, so I suppose it hasn't really been as long as all that.

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Inconstancy

April 17th, 2008 (11:08 am)

I was going to post something longer and drama-filled, but really it wasn't that funny or entertaining and isn't that worth dwelling on, so I'm starting over.

I haven't posted in a couple weeks but that's because nothing's happened in the last couple weeks to make me want to post. School, WoW, periodically spending time with Chichi (which isn't really going all that well), this week vacation and it's already Thursday and I've done nothing, etc.

So here's a bunch of cryptic short paragraphs. Elaboration upon request.

WoW is too much like a job sometimes.

School is almost over and I haven't motivated myself to do anything important about it.

I feel a bit lonely and friendless. We've had a few people over but it's been weird, and things have been so quiet this week.

That last sentence was more emo than I meant it to be.

I hate it when people won't talk to me, especially if they've been talking to me in an overall sense and then stop, without explanation. Makes me wonder what I've done wrong.

It is too nice a day to be indoors. I think we're going into the city today to walk around and enjoy the weather.

Big changes ahead.

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I guess it *was* a bit of a tease ...

April 2nd, 2008 (01:11 pm)

Details...Collapse )
On to other things...Collapse )

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Update

April 2nd, 2008 (12:59 am)
pleased
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feeling: pleased

Well. That went better than expected.

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Tchaaa

April 1st, 2008 (06:44 pm)
nervous
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feeling: nervous

Okay, so I'm nervous. This rarely happens, and it only ever happens when there's a girl involved.

Tonight...Collapse )

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Goofing off

March 27th, 2008 (09:45 am)
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current location: BIO 118

It is tragic that this is the class I enjoy most this semester. With the possible exception of kayaking. Steering a boat around a swimming pool is wicked fun, made less so by the other fifteen screaming morons sharing my personal boat space.

I'm being unkind. Let me start over.

This class is pretty neat. We learned all about peanuts last time, and now we're talking about potatoes. Dry? Some people might find it so. Someone said to me that my life must be pretty boring if I get this excited about peanuts, but did you know that they have teeny tiny little plants inside of them? They're rendered brown by the roasting process, but they're there -- embryonic peanuts.

Leads to some fairly morbid thoughts, allow me to say.

So yes, I was down last time. I'm hesitant to say I'm better, though strictly speaking, that's true: better is relative and I am less down. Doesn't mean I'm good, although I guess I don't have a lot to complain about at the moment.

Oh, give me some time, I'm sure I'll come up with a thing or two.

I'm terrible at coming up with nicknames for people. It's a protocol thing; for privacy's sake, I'm not a big fan of using real names in my journal, except for those most carefully secured. Some people on my flist are great at nicknaming people. Some people use initials (which, well, I know a lot of "L"s in that case). Some people use LJ tags, which is the best approach, I think, if said people have such tags. (Although it's more typing.) Clever nicknames would seem to serve in the absence of such, if only I were clever.

I suppose I'm just rambling. Move along, no content to see here.

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Melancholia

March 24th, 2008 (10:27 pm)
depressed
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feeling: depressed

In which I am an angst-ridden teenager...Collapse )

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WoWery

March 17th, 2008 (09:54 am)
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It's not a habit, it's cool, I feel alive
If you don't have it, you're on the other side
I'm not an addict ... maybe that's a lie ...Collapse )

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The saga of poor education continues ...

March 11th, 2008 (12:06 pm)
annoyed

feeling: annoyed

Wherein I fully disclose my own academic transgressions...Collapse )

Now that that's out of the way ...

English, motherfucker, do you speak it?Collapse )

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